Hung out with my old friend, Adele, yesterday. It was really nice and nostalgic. It's good being able to return to old friends and it still feel comfortable even when life is kind of hectic and you can't always keep super in touch. I have very few people that I keep in touch with from Georgetown, and all of these relationships have had its difficulties and its painful moments on top of being deep and rewarding friendships. I don't know, amongst the business, and all the acquaintances and social networks that I've tried to make, I found that most of my relationships with people have been very fleeting. It gives me hope that there will be some worth holding onto, like my lovely Tumblr Haus roomates.

Anyway, today is my day of avoidance. Actually, it's been more like an avoidance month, but y'know. I'm feeling super anxious because I don't know how to even look at my MRP again, let alone finish it... I don't really know how I made it to grad school in the first place. On the one hand, I'm confident in my abilities to write well and to engage critically. That's not the problem. The problem is my inability to navigate the anxiety and the level of stress that I'm unable to deal with. It's not that I can't write. It's that I have to go through a million little things to coax my brain to even start writing without freaking out and feeling panicked about it... Blergh.

I'm also anxious about my level of exposure etc. to the internet. I had some interesting conversations about privacy with Adele yesterday, and this weird kind of culture in which we expose ourselves emotionally through the internet. It's kind of been giving me some paranoia because I do not always know who reads my blogs, and I do not know how to protect myself because I've exposed myself so publicly. There are many ways in which I can be attacked and can make myself vulnerable... And it's also created some awkwardness when I find out things/ am exposed to peoples emotions around situations that I feel are private/ I shouldn't be reading.

Anyway, maybe I will work my way up to writing something today. Who knows.