Feeling really anxious about going home tomorrow.
I realize that the past week or so has been a wonderful (and much needed) break from reality/ the responsibilities that I have at home. However, the more I think about what I have to do/deal with when I get back, the more overwhelmed I start to feel. I mean realistically, it's manageable. I can do all these things. I can mark all my exams, answer student emails, read my advisor's criticisms, start writing again, visit my family, and figure out what I am going to do in January if I break it all down and conceptualize/plan. But, I don't even want to look at it or check my gryphmail. I don't want to read my advisor's critiques, I don't want to answer student emails, I don't want to feel stressed about being able to graduate, I don't want to care about social situations, I don't want to pay my overdue Rogers bill/plan financially for when I no longer have a job, or make plans to move, or acknowledge to my parents how I'm often incapable of being an 'adult' etc. etc. I don't want to commit to anything/ face my responsibilities. Blergh. I don't know why I can't do it. But I have to make it all work somehow.